Sunday, 20 September 2015
There is one thing that I never understood; myself.
"I only know several things about myself and a lot of them are physical appearance. In my life, I never attended a class on how to know myself emotionally plus people always say emotional is just only one more barrier between you and your objective. On top of that, nowadays people tend to play with your emotional so that they can get absolute benefits from you and don't forget that emotional only will make you miserable and messed up."
I once believed that emotional is such a like this thing, gives harm without leaving single benefits. It is such a horrible thing. I don't believe such love and concern. The reason I felt so was because people ask you about your academic results and your achievements in your life. People will never ever ask about your family and your feeling. People treat feeling as a personal matter and all problems associated with feeling is that person's faults whatever the causes are. If you see it as a horrible thing, believe me this is the real world. A world which full with humans without humanity. The only important thing is achievement. That's it!
The most horrible thing about my thought was I tend to have problems with the closest friend which I shared most of my stories and secrets .The problem usually will end up in a bad manner. Therefore, I had once decided that I don't want to have close friend anymore. Let my stories lied in me and perhaps no one will never know it and let friend becomes only academic friend.
However, someone did succeed changing my thought. I never thought that I did change easily. I completely changed my mind.
We exchanged most of our stories including our secrets which I rarely do. I did totally convert my personal view of life in a better way. I saw life as a difficult place to live but yet colorful. A same easy - happy life will lead to a boring life. The only job as a human that we need to do is to get through all hardships with patient and hope from Him. Mistake is a normal thing because we learn heaps from mistake as we never forgot major mistake that we had done.
Last but not least, as I said before, life is not always about happy life and my experience about close friend. I had severe problems with this person as well.
What we will do when having errors with computer? reset right? Hence, I decide to reset my thoughts about all those things. I'm not a good person and I'm not capable enough to have good friends. I believe that people only get benefits from me when I'm a stranger to them and not friends.
To you my friends, sorry for my mistakes.
Tuesday, 24 March 2015
2015 has started and it has been almost 3 months since the first day of it.
So the first thing I wanna share with you is that I'm taking chemical thermodynamics which is one of the scariest name in engineering subjects. Vocals in this subject are T, P, V, U and H. Temperature. Pressure. Volume. Enthalpy. Energy. Heat. Entropy. Like seriously, you will be suffered if I list out all the terms. What beautiful (pronounce; difficult) about this subject is those listed terms above are interrelated with each other and it will be like the most complicated thing you have ever seen. Engineers only can assume it in term of departure function, ideal condition and real condition. Anyhow, real is not gonna be 100% real because it does not consider the non-engineering terms like the wind, trees shadow and etc. A lot of assumptions are made before any calculations take place. Means, there are several things are not considered in the calculations because it will make the calculations are more complicated.
.....but things happen in that complicated way. It just make me so curious.
Secondly, I went to a shutting-down-BP oil refinery. It was a heat transfer field trip. I just can't describe everything in here, but what everyone can see and observe in a big oil refinery is massive metallic silver tanks and vessels. The first thing came in my mind when I read about distillation column was like the refinery will be not so big because there will be only a few reactions happen (2 reactions = 6 tanks/ vessels (reaction, products raw materials tanks)), but the reality is the other way. There were numerous tanks, vessels, pipes and valves and majority of the huge tanks and vessels were for the heat transfer process. Company won't send their products at 600 degree Celsius. Definitely they will cool it down to the ambient temperature so that it will be easy to be handled and transported.
The previous paragraph tells you about the heat transfer of the oil refinery. But how about the heat transfer of our body and earth itself, we know from the primary school that the temperature of our body is maintained at 37 degree Celsius and 2 degree higher than that will give fever to us. It just awesome isn't? Our body maintains body temperature at the right temperature though the surrounding temperature fluctuates from one temperature to another temperature.
Next in the line is about decision. Thing that always plays looping in my mind is about my life decision. I learned that despite anything happened in our life, do make your own decision though things get rough.
So that you won't regret in future.
So that you can blame on yourself only.
So that you can tell people; "It is my choice"
One said to me, 'after all, we just a number to them'
but I'm not, I don't want to be number...
I wanna be flower. White Rose.
Wednesday, 18 February 2015
Recently, I went to east of my country which consists of two states, Sabah and Sarawak. Sometimes we call it as Borneo. Whatever it is, it still in Malaysia. Down under the both states, lies Kalimantan. I spent about 2 weeks over there to see and observe the culture and uniqueness of their people. In term of culture and people, they have various races which are different with the peninsular Malaysia. For example, peninsular is famous with 3 major races, Chinese, Indians and Malays though there is presence of java linkage however it does not show much difference on these races. On the other hand, in Sarawak itself, they have like Melanau, Iban and Orang Ulu while in Sabah, there are Kadazan, Dusun and several others which I forget their names.
Before I forgot, make sure go to any cake house to buy ‘Kek Lapis’.
After 3 days in Kuching city, we packed our bags and made our steps to airport. Due to big size of Sarawak state, the journey from Kuching to Kota Kinabalu took one and a half hour. It was quite long for me because I had flight from Brisbane to Sydney and it only took 1 hour.
Here comes the real journey…
1st day in Sabah wasn’t a big deal. We had the chance to tour the city and had dinner in one of the seafood stalls. We spent several days later in house watching movies and dramas. The real Sabah visit came when we made our way to Kundasang. It wasn’t so far from Kota Kinabalu. I could say 2-3 hours journey from Kota Kinabalu without any traffic difficulties. Unfortunately, due to expanding technology and city, traffic jam could not be avoided and it was like one in federal highway to Kuala Lumpur. In Kundasang, we went straight away went to Kinabalu park. The fee for the trekking till Layang – layang hut was MYR5 for Malaysians and might be more for foreigners. It was 4km trekking with about 1000m ascending. We took 4 hours to finish the trekking. We didn’t plan to go up to the mountain because it had to be booked early and the fee itself is about MYR500. Thus it needs a well-prepared planning. The other place that we did go was Poring Hot Water. Actually it did only have hot water, but a swimming pool, 2 waterfall track, canopy walk (MYR3 fee and MYR5 for a camera) and Ladang kupu – kupu. Next on the list, Ladang New Zealand (New Zealand Park). It was like a farm in New Zealand with polka dots (white black) cows. The best thing was that my friends were studying in New Zealand, thus nothing to be impressed of because they could see the original scenery in their places and I bet it is much more beautiful compared the one in Malaysia. Bhahaha. One more thing, just my personal advice, please careful when driving because sometimes the fog can be very thick and limit the driver’s sight distance.
In my person view, what makes Sabah differs with Sarawak is the nature. Sabah has a lot of things to see like the beautiful reef in Manukan Island, Semporna, Mount Kinabalu and several others. They also have more advanced malls. But in term of manner, Sarawakians win. In overall, it is subjective thing and it depends on the environment and culture itself.
*akhirnya, habis jugak checklist pergi melawat semua negeri di Malaysia.
**kalau nak pegi lagi sabah sarawak, pastikan ada tour guide dr negeri tu sendiri untuk elak daripada ditipu oleh orang tempatan. orang tempatan selalu akan dapat barang murah lagi daripada orang semenanjung dengan oranng oversea
***will update for pics
Monday, 5 January 2015
Road trip never be disappointing. I went to Sydney last several days to celebrate New Year in Australia. People said that New Year eve in Sydney was the best among the other major cities.
Frankly speaking, I never celebrated New Year celebration in Malaysia. Watching those fireworks and concerts are not my thingy, but because of the camera that I am holding right now kicked me out on the road to see how people shot the 10-15 minutes firework. Annual firework. Some might say it was easy thing to do and so on. For me, it was not easy as said, annually only several events used big firework and the event will only take place in 15 minutes maximum. Several things need to consider especially shooting location. Strategic location will determine the uniqueness of the pictures.
However, I’m not interested to share about these things right now as I did not have the chance to shoot fireworks in proper manner. The pictures were bad. Sigh
During the journey from Brisbane to Sydney, my thought was like people will only go to the firework place on the night of firework. Unfortunately I was wrong. People started to gather and camp at strategic location one night before the firework. I was like, what! That was crazy.
On night of 31 dec, we decided to go to The Rock which is near to opera house 3 hours before 12 am. It was a bit late as place had been filled by sea of people from the morning. We only had the chance to watch the firework through a gate. Not a best spot I guess.
Alright, done with the firework.
|Deer watching firework, 2014|
What was amazed me during that night actually not the firework but the crowd of people. The Sydney council had started to close the city and put barricades along the road. Only several roads can be used but mostly had been closed to ease the people to walk. There was a sea of people, literally. People are everywhere. That was my first time seeing a huge crowd like that.
|Sea of people, 2015|
Then, something struck my head. If and only if Islam took place and lead the world, what will be offered by the Islamic government to celebrate New Year? Is the firework will be demolished entirely? Or it will be replaced by something better?
Still seeking for the answer…