Tuesday, 1 July 2014

The Happy Ramadhan

Ramadhan is just around the corner so why don’t we just invite him in and treat him as best as we can.
Ramadhan

Rahmah.  Maghfirah. Hell freedom

I don’t want to write down things that you might meet up on the other blogs and websites. If you want to know Ramadhan guides, Fiqh of Ramadhan or DIY for Ramadhan planner, I’m pretty sure that you are on the wrong blog. Eheh. However, I will still provide useful website links at the bottom of this post for you.
What I mean different with the rest of people is my experience during the last Ramadhan. I could say that it was the best Ramadhan in term of ibadah, but on the other hand, I could say it was a Ramadhan that had the most lessons.

Health

I could not remember every minute detail on the last Ramadhan except a moment that I had an illness that I never had before. I only could tell that the illness was a fever, a complete different type of fever. The fever prevented me from going to lectures and even attending taraweeh prayer during the night. So, I just laid up on the bed or sit on the chair playing with my laptop. The fever weakened me so much and sometime I felt I just don’t have enough energy to elevate my head from pillow.

Friends

What do want to expect when you can do but nothing on the bed? Hoping helps from roommates. Sometimes, there is time when you have to depend almost of the time on your friends’ kindness. Yeah, that was what I felt during that time. I almost had to fully depend on them.  They took care of me, brought me to the hospital and even ordered and bought me food for me. I still remembered when I fainted on the mid of the road during I had a severe headache. There were several people seeing me fainted and they brought me to my room.

“There are two blessings in which most people are in great loss:
1) Good health
2) Free time.”

In the mid of the hardship, I knew that my plan for the special month had crumbled down and it was far behind from the planning.

However, when I got back home and gained strength bit a bit, I believed that the calamity happened not for none but there must something that He wanted to tell me, something that will make me closer to Him and distinguish from the rest.

He wanted me to look on myself and surrounding me, my physical body and my friends.

He wants me to appreciate what I have in my hand and never look inside others’ hand.

Today, it is my first Ramadhan experience in oversea and it will never be like in my origin country. It is harder and everything depends on me; food, sahur, no bazaar, no near mosque, far musolla.

I believe that those hardships are not to prevent me from
making better Ramadhan, but to make the Ramadhan is going to be an unforgettable Ramadhan in the future.

Whatever is it, please make doa for me and wish me the best for this Ramadhan.

3rd Ramadhan 1435. Not-my country 

Gate, 2014

link for a better Ramadhan:
productive muslim
nasyid

Friday, 27 June 2014

Coming here buddy

There is something that I felt useless and nonsense before but now I realize that it is one of the most important thing in my life.

I believe in our very own life, there is something that is very small till we feel it affects but none to us. We just it small and not important in our life.

Yeah......we could say that because we are wearing our shoes and we never felt others shoes, if you know what I mean. 

What I mean is, in every good deeds that we do, though there are just minute tiny things, there is someone affected and influenced by the things we did. The only thing is just never stop do good deeds.

p/s: don't stop do good mates

Friday, 6 June 2014

Gua 'tempurung'

‘Bro, aku rasa aku tak mampu la nak habiskan. Banyak kot, kau lain la dah biasa dah. Aku baru baca satu ayat, kau dah habis satu muka’

‘Eh budak nih, kau nak aku belanja cendol pulut kat tepi masjid nanti tak?’

‘cendol pulut confirm la nak, tapi….’

Jeda

‘bagi satu minit jap, aku nak cari alasan’

‘bagi cantik muka kau, satu minit aku berharga tau tak? Tapi tak pe, demi sahabat aku sorang nih, aku sanggup luangkan seminit aku tuh’

‘Ha! Aku tak jumpa alasan, tapi boleh tak kalau aku nak guna jalan alternatif?’

‘Jalan alternatif? Tak pernah tahu pulak aku ada jalan alternatif’

‘Instead of I recite, can I just listen to the recitation using my iPhone? The result is still same isn’t it?’

‘Huh, kau ni, sampai bab tiba – tiba kau jadi genius pulak’

‘Baik sikit, aku memang pandai ok. Hmmm, apa kata kita buat satu agreement’

‘Agreement?  Agreement apa?’

‘Hmm camni, if you can explain to me the lessons of this surah until I touch or I cry, I’ll promise you that I’ll finish this surah. But with rules and regulation la, no googling’

‘No googling? Come on, tak aci la camtu’

‘Aci tak aci, my rules say so. Muhahaha’

‘Okay, I’ll try’

‘Give your best then’

‘Do you know that if you recite this surah, Allah will give you light from this Friday till the next Friday?’

‘Hadith tu dah bosan la, kat facebook tu dah berlambak – lambak orang post sampai penat aku share, cuma malangnya aku tak sempat nak hafal je lagi’

‘How many stories do you know in this surah?’

‘Yang aku tahu, dalam surah ni ada four stories, the first one is about the people of the cave. Pemuda yang lari dari pemerintahan yang zalim. Lepas tu ada cerita dua orang lelaki dengan kebun, cerita tentang Nabi Khidir dengan Zul Qarnain’

‘Power gak la kau ni, aku rasa macam kau yang kena bagi expalanation pulak kat aku’

‘Tak de maknanya. Yang tu jela yang aku tahu sebab ustaz kat sekolah aku banyak cerita tentang tu je’

‘Hmm, apa lagi eh. Aku yakin yang ni mesti kau tak tahu punya. Kau tahu tak apa kaitan antara empat ceri tadi tuh dengan kaitan cerita – cerita tadi tuh dengan dajjal?’

‘Wah, yang ni serious aku tak tahu. Tak pernah terfikir pulak tentang benda nih’

‘Sebenarnya dalam empat kisah ni ada tujuan tersendiri. Kau tak rasa pelik ke kenapa surah ni tak cerita tentang Nabi Musa dengan Firaun, kenapa dia cerita tentang Nabi Musa dengan Nabi Khidir. Pelik kan?’

‘Haah la, pelik kot. Sebab banyak je cerita lain yang ada tentang Nabi Musa nih, tapi cerita tentang Nabi Khidir gak dia pilih’

‘So, nak diringkaskan cerita, sebenarnya dalam Surah nak cerita tentang empat ujian yang akan melanda masa zaman dajjal nanti dan benda ni jugak boleh berlaku waktu zaman sekarang. Ujian pertama ialah, jeng jeng jeng. Cuba kau teka’

‘Ya rabbi, kau ni potong steam betul la. Aku tengah concentrate kot’

‘Eh, kau ni, steam mana boleh potong, nampak pun tidak’

‘Ish, budak ni, sempat lagi melawak, karang aku tak baca karang baru kau tahu’

‘Pulak dah, ok2 aku sambung. Ujian ataupun fitnah yang pertama ialah fitnah agama dan benda ni boleh nampak kat dalam cerita budak gua tuh. Pemerintah masa tu nak diorang ni sembah dia, so, demi nak selamatkan aqidah diorang pun lari la pegi masuk dalam gua. Fitnah yang kedua ialah fitnah harta. Kebun yang banyak pokok yang ada kat dalam surah tu menyebabkan salah seorang lelaki tu tak percaya lagi kepada tuhan dia. Yang ketiga, fitnah ilmu. Here we go the story of mosses. Nabi Musa ada menganggap bahawa dial ah yang paling pandai, then Allah bagi dia jumpa dengan Nabi Khidir. Last but not least, the story of Zulqarnain. It is about position and power. Kuasa yang besar boleh bagi kita lupa diri, benda ni banyak dah cerita kat dalam kisah dongeng. Aku rasa kau pun faham kan’

‘Fuyyoo, ada certain benda yang aku baru tahu bila kau cerita tadi. Tapi camne kita nak overcome those kinds of problems?’

‘Yang tu kau jangan risau. Semua tu ada dalam surah yang sama. Untuk fitnah yang first, the solution for that particular of fitnah is by having a good friend I mean a religious friend. Kalau tak, susah la kan nak jaga agama kan? Tak pun, dia akan jadi cerita tentang beberapa pemuda dengan beberapa gua’

‘Asal cmtu pulak?’

‘Sebab semua tak kenal antara satu sama lain. Maybe la kot. For the second one, fitnah harta boleh lari dengan tidak terikat dengan dunia. I mean instead we put dunya in our heart, we put dunya on our hand. Moving on, tau tak problem apa yang selalu ada dengan orang pandai ni?’

‘Sombong and berlagak maybe?’

‘Yeah, sort of. So nak buang benda – benda macam tuh, hati tu kena direndahkan. We must realize that there might somebody who knows better than us macam kisah nabi Khidir yang lebih tahu dari Nabi Musa tuh. Last sekali, untuk kuasa ni, nak tak nak kita kena selalu ikhlas and berharap kepada tuhan. Sebab kuasa tu amanah daripada tuhan. Waktu Zulqarnain nak buat tembok yakjuj makjuj tu, dia cakap tembok tu bukan daripada dia tapi datang dari rahmat tuhan’

‘okay, quiet interesting. Kejap, lagi satu, kenapa surah ni nama dia gua?’

‘Kau pernah masuk dalam gua tak?’

‘apa kaitan aku dengan gua pulak? Tapi aku pernah la masuk gua kat Perak dulu, Gua Tempurung kalau tak silap aku. Tapi waktu ada ramai orang, kalau aku masuk sorang – sorang atau masuk lima orang je, seram gak la. Yela kan, kita bukan tahu pun apa benda yang ada kat dalam tuh’

‘Kau ingat lagi tak maksud ayat baqarah awal – awal tuh?’

‘Yang tentang keimanan pada benda ghaib tu ke?’

‘Haah yang tu. Dalam gua ni supposed to be sangat gelap and menakutkan seperti yang kau cakap tadi, tapi Allah ada suruh pemuda kahfi ni masuk gua yang so called gelap and menakutkan tu tapi Allah cakap dia akan bagi rahmat dan sesuatu yang berguna untuk diorang. So, Allah nak kita beriman benda ghaib macam gua tu tadi. Nak tahu satu benda yang menarik tak?’

‘Benda menarik? Pe dia?’

‘Tahu tak yang Allah start surah ni dengan cerita tentang Qurang pastu dia tutup pun dengan cerita tentang Quran?’

‘Really, yang ni serious cool. Dari tadi kita cerita tentang gua – gua dari tadi sampai aku lupa nama dia dalam Bahasa arab’

‘hahaha, yang ni serious lawak’

‘Apa nama dia eh? Kuhuf? Kahaf?’

‘Surah Kahfi…….’

Thursday, 29 May 2014

Birdies ^_^



Peace be upon you

It is very hard to maintain and keep writing in a blog while you are studying. It is not because you don't have much time to write, it is because everyday you will study something that you won't post in your blog. Do you want me to post about Chemical principle process? of course not. It has stressed me and I don't want you to feel the same thing as me. 

So, to release my stress as well as yours (perhaps), I want to share with you pictures of birdies last few days. The pictures were taken during my trip to Queen Mary Falls, QLD. It is near to border of QLD and NSW. First of all, when you want make a trip to whenever you want, please make sure you bring along your sweater because the temperature cannot be expected. Some times it might be cold, I mean very cold. Secondly, sleeping bag is a compulsory stuff when you are abroad. It is very versatile and mobile but the cheap one might be bulky and heavy. Kathmandu or Deuter might be good options. 
Actually, I don't know what pictures that I should share as I've been quite busy recently with academic stuff, thus there's nothing  much to be shared. However, my heart is moved to share these pictures. Pictures that make me reflect on myself. 

Am I too busy until I don't have much time to remember Him?
Because He is the one who creates everything.
Everything that goes in my life is his planning. Everything that I feel, it also His planning. 
Everything is only to benefit me, every minute details is to make me better, inside and outside. 
Although process streams are complicated, but blood veins in our body are much more complicated.
If we feel the calculations and theories are difficult to be remembered, we should know that all the theories are from Him. He creates, maintains and sustains everything in this world. Yeah, everything. 
He makes no mistakes, no assumptions and no errors.
Everything is accurate without errors even with value 0.00000001.( or even less )


Who am I to complain?

So, don't stress and let's observe the beauty and the complexity of this life

^_^

'Greddish (green + reddish) bird'

' Don't take pic of my butt!'


Though it seems that it is posing, actually it just snatched our sausage from BBQ grill before I did shoot this picture.

cute bird + cute child = cute^2

Small and cute birdies, ' Can I bring one back home?..'

Friday, 9 May 2014

Camping


Peace be upon you

This is my first camping in Australia. I had nothing to expect before the camp and eventually I ended up shivering and maybe I should take lesson from this camping. It was an amazing camp site because it was total black during the night and you only can see light either from your hand phone or from fire. Or else you will knock everything in front of you. 

And one thing that might will encourage me to go camping again is the star gazing. In the deep black, the stars were alike the chandelier in a grand ball room. It was amazing. But it was unfortunate for me because I hadn't found suitable space to shoot the stars. yeah, maybe next time.




The Fire that spreads the light, 2014
Pit black, 2014

Waiting, 2014

I'm the chef, 2014

Walking sleeping bag, 2014

Tuesday, 22 April 2014

Wellington point, Brisbane




Those are the pictures from Wellington point, Brisbane. One of the most famous place for sunset shooting photo. It is a nice place but I just came late and missed the best time for shooting. Anyway, it is just wonderful.

Sunday, 6 April 2014

'Home sweet home'

Peace be upon you readers,

I think this post will be a random thought in my life.

A thought that you will think at the end of your imagination, home

I want to begin this post with my experience in the secondary school. During that time, I had lived in boarding school and I only could go back for weekend once a month. I never thought it was a nightmare for me because I believed that everything was a good for me. Plus, I only called my parents if I wished to go back home just for informing them. I was so confused why people had the homesick thingy. I never felt it once. I felt homesick people were childish and could not study in boarding school.

Time went fast.

I got to move different school during form four. I moved to other school that takes about 5.5 hours journey. Seriously, I never thought that I will study in a school that so far from my house. Meeting a lot of new friends with different backgrounds made me to feel that I was not alone. There were people in the same boat with me. 'They are same with you'... However, this time situation got worsen I thought as I only have four holidays per annum. Lucky for me, when I felt that I want to go back home, there were always people inviting me to forget about it and looking forward. 'Life must be continued, it is useless to look behind...' Yeah, I admitted that. New school, new friends, new experiences. It was not my plan, it was Him. Nonetheless, I felt lonely sometime, without specific reasons. I just wanna go home and sleep. That's all.

Eventually

Here I am, thousands miles from my house. I realize that it's useless for me thinking about home all over the time because home is not mobile. You can't bring it whenever you go. But, I know that I can make one. I can make home. Making home inside your heart. I know it seems nonsense, but it is the last resort that I can think.

First of all, I was thinking what are the components of a home. What makes me calm and safe inside it. Is it the huge lock and alarm that secure the people from thief and robber. Or it is about the people that always protect you and continuously preserve happiness light inside you. Maybe it is because the people that can understand and know your heart without telling them.

From those components, I believe that I can make a new home or something similar to home. Maybe.....


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Who say looking forward without taking a glance a while at the back is an easy thing.

It is hard and extremely difficult.

But I said to this body that I belong to nowhere, I don't belong to anyone, I won't so depend on someone and something else. I only belong Him. He has the best planning. My job is put my full belief on Him.

Because He wants me to walk, run and explore.


mothering, 2013